i'm serious

I'm here to blog for the second post.
Just texting with X. I cant accept the answer.
You told me that you tot I'm just kidding! Hey, man! I'm serious kay?
ugh..
This is not a word can explain it all.. And not just a word "sorry" then must I forgive you..
It's terrible! impossible!
It take a long time for me to recover.
I think I'm so foolish..aint me..?
Finally, i tell you all the truth..and guess wad..?huh? I think you wont know the feeling..! Forever..
By the way, this is not the final answer I wan.. It is out of what i expected.. true!
You ruin everything!
You consider that is just a joke..! not funny at all..
How good you!